Butterfly Moments: a Composers Journey to Spiritual Enlightenment

Publisher Marketing: From the book "Butterfly Moments" As I try to stand up in the Critical Care Unit waiting room, at Sumner Regional Hospital, I feel my knees buckle and my legs go out from under me. I am weak with worried anticipation and as I began to collapse, my friends Derri and Karen catch me by my arms. After a horrific ordeal that is no less than a living nightmare, my daughter, Denise, is in very critical condition in the next room. The last time I had gone in to see her, with the exception of her chest barely moving up and down, all signs of life were virtually gone. Her blood pressure was crawling at 48 over 18 while at the same time her heart was racing at 150 beats a minute. There was a huge tube down her throat, breathing for her through a machine. You could hear the ventilator keeping perfect time with an eerie kind of swishing sound, in the corner of the room. As far as her doctor was concerned, Denise was dead. At 3AM the night nurse, Amy, woke me up in the waiting room and told me Denise wanted to see me. My baby was awake! She had come back to us and was on her way to recovery. The next day I learned that Denise did go to the peaceful place. As she weakly spoke of her mystical journey, she seemed transformed. She was filled with beautiful wisdom. I was in complete awe of the saintly words flowing from her mouth. Denise had seen what she refers to as "A golden light outlined with a deep blue." I asked her, "Is there a reason we are here?" She answered, "Yes Mommy. We are here to experience life. It comes with both pain and happiness." Denise revealed to me that she tried to go into the tunnel of light, but they wouldn't let her in. She said they kept saying, "Go to your Mommy." Later she told me, "If it's not your time, it's not your time and they send you back." Denise says that the loving, golden light of God is everywhere. "People just can't see it. I can... if I close my eyes I can see the light anytime I want. Now I know the big picture." As she spoke of her near death experience I thought, "What an honor it is to be your mother!" Life is an adventure that we choose at the soulful level. It is our contract with God. All of us have a divine purpose and all of us are equally important. Life is about rediscovering who we are. We are all students and we are all teachers. My children have been my greatest teachers. My journey in this lifetime has been experienced as a musician/composer. My purpose is to assist in awakening the spirit with music. I perform my compositions from a place I refer to as the Source of Love. Denise told me later that she could hear my piano recordings from "the other side." She said that hearing the music, gave her a path back to life and she could hear it playing as she regained consciousness. This incident with my daughter occurred after Butterfly Moments was written. It was from the lessons that I am about to share with you that I was able to witness the whole event, of almost losing my precious daughter, with my spiritual eyes. I replaced my fear with God. I replaced my fear with Love. Each one of us has a divine purpose. We are never alone. I repeat... we are never alone! A small, delicate, orange and black butterfly taught me this lesson on a beautiful September morning, while I was having an inquisitive conversation with God. This was a major turning point in my awareness of the divine that dwells within all of us. I began to recognize that Butterfly Moments happen every day. I hope that in sharing what I have come to know, you will better recognize these quiet, beautiful moments that occur every day in your life. My story was written for you with Love.